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Created on 2005-06-01 14:13:50 (#7296527), last updated 2008-12-09
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Basic Info| Name: | Lauren |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 1989-04-09 |
| Location: | United States |
Biohi.
my name is lauren and i'm 18 years old.
i have this LJ to communicate with others like myself.
and to meet people for support.
i was diagnosed with anorexia at age 12,
and i've been battling with it since then.
life is journey which makes many unexpected twists and turns.
and it's always good to have someone on your side.
♥
there's beauty
in the breakdown..
*
Nothing can be done against the truth
No matter how we remain in denial
Wasting time
Replacing time
With each empty excuse
But that'll only work a little while
Coping with despair
Knowing you're not there
Ashamed to just admit
I've been a fool
So I blame it on the Son
Run away from everyone
Hoping to escape this ridicule
Trapped in misery
Wrapped so miserably
In this deception that im wearing like a skin
Dying to mantain
Oh I keep trying to explain
A heart that never loved me to begin
Oh I'm such a mess
I have no choice but to confess
That I've been desperately trying to belong
Lying to myself
And everybody else
Refusing to admit my right was wrong
Please save me from myself
I need You to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal
How beautiful is fruit still in denial of its roots?
My guilty heart behaved so foolishly
This treason from within
That reasons with my sin
Won't be happy til it sees the death of me
Selfishly addicted
To a life that I depicted
Conflicted cuz it's not reality
Oh what's left of me
I beg you desperately
Cause me to agree with what I know is best for me
Please save me from myself
I need You to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal
my name is lauren and i'm 18 years old.
i have this LJ to communicate with others like myself.
and to meet people for support.
i was diagnosed with anorexia at age 12,
and i've been battling with it since then.
life is journey which makes many unexpected twists and turns.
and it's always good to have someone on your side.
♥
there's beauty
in the breakdown..
*
Nothing can be done against the truth
No matter how we remain in denial
Wasting time
Replacing time
With each empty excuse
But that'll only work a little while
Coping with despair
Knowing you're not there
Ashamed to just admit
I've been a fool
So I blame it on the Son
Run away from everyone
Hoping to escape this ridicule
Trapped in misery
Wrapped so miserably
In this deception that im wearing like a skin
Dying to mantain
Oh I keep trying to explain
A heart that never loved me to begin
Oh I'm such a mess
I have no choice but to confess
That I've been desperately trying to belong
Lying to myself
And everybody else
Refusing to admit my right was wrong
Please save me from myself
I need You to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal
How beautiful is fruit still in denial of its roots?
My guilty heart behaved so foolishly
This treason from within
That reasons with my sin
Won't be happy til it sees the death of me
Selfishly addicted
To a life that I depicted
Conflicted cuz it's not reality
Oh what's left of me
I beg you desperately
Cause me to agree with what I know is best for me
Please save me from myself
I need You to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal
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